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Art makes life beautiful and pain bearable. God, our creator gives us His truth and the ability to create in order to sustain us and make sense of the unexplainable.
Thank you Lisa and Angie for creating a way for mothers to carry the babies they can no longer hold…marked by love, audrey's necklace. I love that it has weight and holds body heat, reminding you of the child held by God that you still long to hold - Here is a poem that carried me when I thought could no longer stand…
"I stood a beggar of God before His royal throne
And begged him for one priceless gift, which I could call my own.
I took the gift from out His hand, but as I would depart I cried,
‘But Lord this is a thorn and it has pierced my heart.
This is a strange and hurtful gift which Thou hast given me.
He said, ‘My child, I give good gifts and gave My best to thee.
I took it home and though at first the cruel thorn hurt sore,
As long years passed I learned at last to love it more and more.
I learned He never gives a thorn without this added grace,
He takes the thorn to pin aside the veil which hides His face.”
-Martha Snell Nicholson
Emily Vahle - Sharon, I have sat here in the wee hours of this morning, way before the sun comes creeping over the horizon, and I am touched. I am touched by your story here, by the way you are able to transfer your heart through your words. I sit here with my 3 precious boys surrounding me and I’m grateful. Your loss brings tears to my eyes and I cannot imagine such grief. Your story speaks to me to remind me of how precious these children we raise are and how God makes no mistakes. That is not always easy to say, I imagine you know that better than most. God has a plan, a plan we cannot imagine or even understand at times, and we fit into that plan the way He wants us to. As lowly humans, we only want our plan to be His plan, but we are generally reminded fairly quickly that that is usually not the case, and we try to adjust and grow and trust Him to be God. I thank you for sharing all of this. It could not have been easy. They say God only gives us what we can handle, and you have shown that that continues to be true. You have been blessed and I know by reading all of these posts that God has shown you how to learn from this and He has clearly used this situation to teach you things and help you grow. Perhaps that was His reason. I just wanted to tell you that as I sit here this morning with my 3 boys, you have touched me and taught me through your grief. I only hope to know how to be half as strong as you if ever I encounter something so raw as this. God be with you and your husband and 4 precious boys.
Sharon - Thank you so much Emily for your kind words. God has definitely taught us so much through this path He has had us walk. Life in this broken world can hurt so bad but He is so good.
xo